Since my last post (where I think I may have been still a little high on opioids – ha) and arriving home from Brisbane following my recent operation, things have been different.
I would go as far as to say that the release of my Achilles’ tendon and adjusting the Ilizarov frame has been ‘life changing’. Well life changing in the sense of the 3months of life I’ve had holed up in the house/bed! I don’t think I had realised how much the pain had steadily increased along with my levels of tolerance.
Over this period of time I have felt like an emotional wreck because nothing has really helped.. Not the pills, nor the heat/ice packs or the various gels/sprays. Sleep was getting to the point of ridiculous with pain making sure I woke almost hourly each night. I have a newfound appreciation and utmost respect for those amongst us living with chronic pain.
I would tell myself everyday I am blessed, that this is acute and it too will pass. Something most chronic pain sufferers can’t tell themselves.
But since returning home on Tuesday, there’s been a miracle of sorts.. I have actually been sleeping!! Waking maybe twice a night and not needing to take tablets or requiring a plethora of heatpacks to get back off to sleep. I am scared to be excited incase it reverts but for the moment I’m just so grateful.
Last night as we had reached 12weeks since my operation! (Can you believe it’s been 3 months!! Well yes I can….)
Anyway I decided to ask the girls a couple of question about my story to date and I wanted to record it so that one day we could look back on it.
I just have to share..😃
Stella insisted on being ‘disguised’ in snap chat filters – I’m sure no one will recognise her this way – haha.
Seriously these are the times that I hope to look back and laugh and cry happy tears in reflection. I hope I get to do everything the girls wish me to do with them both – to make up for this ‘normal’ they both refer to as I’m pretty sure that doesn’t exist – well certainly not for me!!
I am blessed. Not in a ‘perfect life’ blessed way..just in a ‘happy to find moments that seem perfect’ blessed.